A heartfelt confession of a struggling marriage: navigating guilt, love, and choices after 11 years. A personal story of infidelity, mental health, and the fear of loss, shared with honesty and vulnerability.
The Burden of a Struggling Marriage
I’ve been married for 11 years. When we started, we loved each other deeply, but over time, our relationship has faltered. The constant arguments and her unending complaints push me away. I’m aware she’s struggled with mental health issues in the past, and I’ve genuinely tried to support her. However, the connection we once had feels lost.
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Our inability to have children added a layer of complexity. We decided to adopt, but even this shared goal couldn’t mend the distance growing between us. We live apart due to circumstances, yet we speak daily. Despite this, our conversations often turn into arguments. It’s been four years since we’ve been intimate. That void has led me down a path I’m not proud of.
Seeking Comfort Elsewhere
In my loneliness, I’ve looked for comfort outside my marriage. I know this is wrong. I feel the weight of guilt every day. Recently, I met someone at work who made me feel alive again. We’ve spent time together privately, but she’s firm in her boundaries. She won’t be involved with a married man. Her words, “If you weren’t married, I’d marry you,” echo in my mind and haunt me.
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I’ve lied to my wife to see this new person. I hate myself for the deceit, but I can’t seem to stop. My guilt is overwhelming, and I’m torn between my love for my wife and my feelings for someone else.
The Pain of Cheating and the Fear of Loss
Despite our problems, I know my wife deserves better. She’s a good person who’s been through enough pain. I’ve thought about divorce, not because of the new relationship, but to free her from the hurt I’ve caused. Yet, the idea of losing her terrifies me.
My heart is at war with itself. I’m fully aware that my actions are unjustifiable. Sharing this is not a plea for advice but a way to confront my reality. I’m lost, consumed by guilt, and unsure of what to do next.
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